Not Anymore

Who made the promise originally?
Who has broke the promise?
Who has made the cruelest decision?
Who made me fell in love at first point?
Who made me hurt in advance?

Wash my face with tears,
Just because of you.
How much I did,
Just because of you.
How much I lost,
Just because of you.

These are memories,
In deep abyss of my mind.

These will no longer,
Repeated!
Not anymore, anymore.

Scared,
No longer missing you.
Tired,
No longer loving you.

Fabian

I will still wait you

Although I did a lot,
I changed myself,
I'm not what I used to be,
I'm not doing what I used to do,
I have been waiting for long time,
But you wouldn't give me another chance.

With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand,
And all my tears they keep running down my face!
But, you turned away.

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside!
This is not how you wanted to be!

So, I will wait for you.
Cause I don't know what else I can do.
If it takes the rest of my life!!!
I don't know,
Just can't tell, but now,
I know I will still wait for you!

If you think I'm fine,
It just ain't true.

I really need you in my life.
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you!
It's been a long time since you left me,
How can you walk away like that?

What can make you come back?
Is this just over like that?
I love you more than you'll ever know.

I will still wait for you,
Until the time that I'll let go,
I tried,
But I could not let it goes.

Don't leave me crying.
Why can't we just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was,
If you give me a chance I can love you right,
But your telling me it wont be enough

I will still wait for you.



Elliott Yamin/Fabian
(Changed)

When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie

is made up on your side

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

I haven't felt this way before

Everything that I do

reminds me of you

And the clothes you left

are lyin' on the floor

And they smell just like you

I love the things that you do

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were

yeah...

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Yeah...

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're gone

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

By Avril Lavigne

Tired.. Scared..

im sick of you treating me like shit,
i think im going to be happy
but im stuck in this world i call reality
everything has gone wrong for me
so im giving up
on love
on happiness
on everything
when you see me smile it wont be real
i will seem like the happiest person in the world
but inside im dying
i love, being in love
i just dont think i will again
im normally not such a depressed person
but i cant hold it in anymore
im done trying to love
i give up
you win.


Fabian

Blury

My life is blur,
And my heart may be damaged.
and even though i am a teenage ,
and have way too much drama.
and say things i dont mean,
there was always something about you
maybe the way you looked at me,
like i was on top of the world
or mabye the way i felt,
like no one could tear us apart
but everytime i looked in your eyes
i had to smile
and everytime we talked all night on the phone
i had to laugh
because you made me feel
like no one else mattered
but we didnt breakup
because i wasnt ready
or i was scared
we broke up bbecause you hurt me
and you hurt me bad
you took my heart and stomped on it
all without even realizing it
but i loved you alot
no matter what
and probably always will
but excuse me when i say
i need sometime to fix my broken heart


Fabian

Love

Please give me a reason to forget you..
It has been awhile..
Apparently..
I never thought of giving up..

Im abiding at this time at this momment..
Abide truthfully..
Your heart is like..
Unpredictable weather..

Maybe someday..
You will come back to me..
But, I know it is impossible..
It is immutable..

At the time when we broke up..
Had the feeling of apathy..
I know we were disconnected..
Tried to reconcile..
But, I became tedious..

I tried to retrieve..
No matter how long..
No matter how far...
Even to the final destination of my life..
Still have neither complaints nor remorse..

But its all too late..
Im just a little stanza of your life poem..
Friendship..
Is all I need at this point..

You treat me ruthless..
But..
I still keep you in my mind constantly..
I tried to ignore the distance..
But..
It still hurts..

Dislike the feeling of "Can't Let Go"..
Expecting if there is another chance..
The only thing left in my mind..
Is the memories which bruised my soul..

Pilgrimage of human's lifes..
Include helplessness..
Without choices..
And still have inexplicable wounded soul..

"Cherish" a person..
Doesn't mean to possess "it"..
Rather..
Let "it" searches for "its" dependable "shoulder"..

I hope..
You can stay in the abyss..
Of my memory..
That's all I want..
That's all I need..

"Love" nurtures a heart completely..
Represented cherish..
"Sentiment" depends on a stand-still heart..
Repesented accompanying..
So..
Love is the solution of..
Cherish + Accompanying..


Fabian